Waiting on purpose.

My 30s have been amazing so far – the best decade yet! I had no idea it would be like this after the tumultuous 20s. Careers are more stable. Personalities have settled in. People in their 30s have started to get a handle on the adult thing. Most of my friends have gotten married and are having babies and it’s fun to see them grow and mature in new ways. Life is wonderful. I appreciate it in all its fullness with an understanding based on experience and a still child-like wonder.

Don’t get me wrong – there’s still a lot I’m looking forward to. More adventures, more romance, more laughs, more struggles, more opportunities to pour into others.

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Complaints come at a cost.

If you’re prone to talking through your problems with friends or family, you may be familiar with the question, “have you prayed about it as much as you’re talking about it?”

Gulp. Likely, perhaps, the answer is – maybe always – no. If you’re not accustomed to listening for answers, you may feel like prayer doesn’t make an impact.

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Jealous? Think again.

There is no room for jealousy in the body of Christ. That’s not to say it doesn’t exist, but instead, we need to ignore it. God created us to know – and to truly live – secure in our place and purpose. While looking for bible verses tonight related to letting go, I came across a passage from 2 Corinthians 12. However, when I searched to read the whole chapter, I incorrectly typed 1 Corinthians 12. Here I am, reading the text below, when I realize what I’m mistakenly reading is exactly what I need. Thank you God!

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Are you Much Afraid? You are not alone.

I recently was given the book “Hinds’ Feet on High Places” by a new friend. She was telling me about what she was currently reading, and when we got to the protagonist’s name…Much Afraid…I knew this would speak to me. If you’ve never read the book, it’s quick and easy to understand. It really brings home the main ideas of Christ’s love for us and how we become who we were created to be.

Much Afraid lives in the Valley of Humiliation with her Fearing family – her cousins are Pride, Craven Fear, Bitterness, Resentment and Self Pity. When the Good Shepard offers to take Much Afraid up to the High Places, she struggles with the courage to even go with him. The book recounts her journey upwards.

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40 Days of No Fear

Fear makes a liar out of each of us. In both big and small ways, fear causes us to fall short of pursuing and fulfilling God’s promise for us. (In Greek, the word sin, αμαρτία, literally means “to miss the mark,” so I don’t see sin as something that breaks us, but rather simply separates us from our true selves…just like it separated Adam and Eve from God.) Fear stops us from following God’s calling for us. Think of the Denial of Peter – Jesus knew Peter would deny him three times out of fear of being associated with Christ. We’re often shocked by this, but would you be strong enough to act differently? DO you act differently? Each time you give into fear and ignore God’s call to you, you’re denying him and the power he has over the world.

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When Living Gets Heavy

After being unable to sleep this morning, I transitioned to the couch. Lying there wrapped in a blanket, I crossed my arms over my chest in an effort to get as comfortable as possible. For a few moments, I rested. But with every breath, and with each passing minute, things felt heavier. For those minutes, I fully realized the weight of my own body – my chest moving up and down, my arms shifting slightly to accommodate the movement.

In between slow breaths, three things crossed my mind:

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Only Through Death

Today, the Orthodox world buries Christ. On Great and Holy Friday, we mourn the death of Christ on the Cross as we remove his body and prepare it for burial. Today is a day centered on the effects of sin. Today, in anticipation of ultimate triumph, sin nailed Christ to the Cross in order to prove its sovereignty. Once and for all, sin aimed to separate God from his most beloved creation.

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With faith, not sight.

Ever since I was a child I’ve loved maps. I remember being five years old sitting in the back seat giving my grandparents directions. “No, don’t take a left, take a right. No, don’t take a right, take a left.” Of course, my directions were useless, but I loved holding the map either way. I guess you could say I loved the feeling of being in control.

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Everyone is fighting a battle. We, as sympathetic humans, say this consistently. Bad days are relative, and everyone has them. Each of us wrestle demons – seen and unseen – in an effort to continue to put one foot in front of the other each day.

Some battles are private. Some battles are public. Some are momentary and others, unfortunately, last a lifetime. It’s a condition of our fallen world. The battle between good and evil rages and we’re stuck smack in the middle.

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